As summer quickly comes to a close, I can’t help but look back in awe and praise at all the Lord did in me. You see, I entered into summer with some pretty bold prayers.
Come wreck me.
Do whatever you want to do.
Say whatever you want to say.
Move however you want to move.
Change whatever you want to change.
I was scared of what might happen. And quite honestly, it wasn’t always easy as the Lord went to work. So many thoughts swept through my head:
Am I called to missions?
Why am I even going to college?
Should I change my major?
What is God’s plan for my life?
I was getting anxious. I wanted to know the entire plan for my future… all of it. Whether it was a 10 step plan or a 100 step plan, I wanted to know so I could get moving. But the Lord wanted me to rest and enjoy the period of change he was walking me through. As I began to question everything that I thought I was sure about, I realized how little I had been trusting God and how much I needed to be. As I began to focus on the Giver himself more than what He was giving me (or not giving me), He began to make more things known to me. It’s funny how that works. When we give up, the Lord gives.
The Lord sure did give me a lot: A lot of passion, a lot of inspiration, a lot of community, and a lot of risks to take.
And this blog is the first one. I told Him I was trading in self consciousness for vulnerability at the beginning of the summer, and he jumped right on that, whispering:
Be vulnerable with those close to you.
But then reach farther.
It’s not always easy to pray big prayers. And it’s definitely not easy to wait for the answers. But don’t let that stop you because the Lord has a sweet journey for you, and I don’t want you to miss it.
♡ A tethered heart